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[He had wanted to talk with Omega about Seven's "I think your best friend is romantically interested in you" nonsense. Instead...]

I have nightmares about my children dying.

[He pauses, eyes wide. Damn flood!]

[He quickly turns the feed off, before he starts talking about his daughter the last thing he needs is everyone knowing about that.]

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O... Omega? [He half stands up, before keeping where he is, because he doesn't know if Omega would want him to follow.] I didn't mean to hurt you, but... you said - you said these things, that I'm insufficient and... I thought you didn't - want me around, if I'm not how I used to be. I don't want you to go away.

And tell me. What bothers you? I'm your friend, after all. I simply... I want to be fine. I am, because... there's no reason not to be, right? So tell me why you're not, so... I can help.

[How to deal with your personal problems for Time Lord Presidents:

a) they aren't so bad, just think about it logically
b) deny they exist at all -- if you keep saying you're fine, they will spontaneously disappear
c) slowly go insane, snap and start vaporizing people

Choose whichever option you deem appropriate -- or even try out all three!]

[He bumps his head against the wall, wanting to get angry, instead of… he used to be so good at being angry! But now, now he tries to summon it up, he can't, he can't and it makes him feel so weak and what good is he? How is he supposed graduate Brax, help Rassilon if he's going to feel like this every time he speaks to them? Oh, sure, he can keep it mostly together when he talks to Brax, thanks to that shielding of his, and not the kind against telepathy, but the feeling of helpless always springs up and he can't quite hide it!.]

Fine.

[He's not talking to Rassilon, just repeating the word as if it were a vile curse.] Finefinefinefinefine. [He's found the anger but it just chokes him.]

[Rassilon's eyes widen and he gets up, after all, quietly approaching his friend. He lightly touches Omega's arm.] Omega, what is it?

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[He looks blankly at the hand.] Fine. Everyone says fine.

[Rassilon looks unsure. Emotional outbursts? Easy. Actually dealing with the consequences? Err...] You don't want that?

[Omega shakes his head, which is resting now on the wall.] Fine means stop. Go away. Leave me alone. I can't help people who are fine. So many people and they're all fine!

I don't want you to go away! I want you to be with me. I always have. How should I be fine otherwise? I don't care what Braxiatel or anyone else says, but I would never want you to leave me.

Then what do you want? To believe you when say that but act differently? You say fine to shut me up, stop me from prying, so you don't have to know how you feel. Pretend it's not there, then it won't be.

[Now it's his turn to stare blankly. What. What. stop seeing through him, Omega! And don't criticize his awesome problem solving skills. Maybe it's time for d) freak out and start shouting? ...Wait, he's already done that.]

I... I don't want to talk about these things. They just make both of us upset and... I don't want that to happen, so... It has always worked until now.

Of course, it makes us upset! It's upsetting! But it's there lurking under the skin, whether or not we talk about it.

Why can't it stay there? Talking about it will not change what happened. So why do we have to? [Wait long enough and you'll get over it, that always works, right?]

I'm not going to let it win! I'm not going to be defined by it, I refuse!

What do you mean?

Why are we angry? Scared? I'm tired of it!

Then don't... be...? [Alright, that wasn't really helping.] Why are you angry? [Let's try Omega's method! As long as it wasn't about his own issues...]

I'm angry, because that's the emotion that helped me survive.

But you don't need that here. You say I'm safe, so the same goes for you.

That doesn't make it go away. I can't change so easily.

Then I shall help you, my friend.

All right.

Good! [He smiles. Then remembers that he doesn't know how to. Um...

Well, staring expectantly at Omega is surely a good way to start.]

[Omega let out a frustrated sigh.] It's nothing accomplished by will alone.

Then we will have to do something else. ...How is it accomplished?

By talking. By not hiding behind 'fine' or maybe it can't be accomplished at all! I don't know!

Then talk to me. We shall accomplish it somehow, I assure you.

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