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[He had wanted to talk with Omega about Seven's "I think your best friend is romantically interested in you" nonsense. Instead...]

I have nightmares about my children dying.

[He pauses, eyes wide. Damn flood!]

[He quickly turns the feed off, before he starts talking about his daughter the last thing he needs is everyone knowing about that.]

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[He smiles and hugs Omega back.] I shall remember it.

Good!

[Rassilon grins.] But don't complain if I come at the wrong time.

I reserve the right to complain, but you can reserve the right to ignore it.

Then what is the point in complaining?

Complaining, my dear friend, is often an end unto itself.

Is that so?

Indeed.

I see. [He leans against Omega.]

[Puts an arm around him.] Besides, who hasn't said 'leave me alone' and actually meant 'I'm hurt and I need anything but'?

...That wasn't complaining. [He glares at Omega. Well, he tries to, but he looks more like he's sulking.] You were the one who felt the need to call me insufficient. [And poke at some other sore spots.]

[He hadn't actually been thinking about that, but brings him closer and speaks quietly.] I don't like to see you limit yourself, that's all.

Edited 2011-03-16 00:48 (UTC)

[He props his head against Omega's shoulder.] I know. But it was still hurtful.

I never believed you were insufficient, but I thought you believed it. the doubts that you had, making you lash out, I should have kept my temper. I was a hypocrite.

But didn't you say this me was insufficient for you? I had thought you didn't care about this me...

In am not doubting myself. I wouldn't have done the things I have if I would doubt them later.

It was phrased terribly. You do yourself an injustice, that persona, that you that you 'are', you cover yourself up with it, but it isn't… you are far more than that, someone limited to the role of 'leader', 'Founder', 'Warlord'. So very much more.

And the doubt I speak of isn't about the choices you have made, but the doubt that those choices, necessary though they may be, may have had the secondary effect of turning you into that tyrant of which everyone speaks.

Do you see why I would object to that? I will not stand by and allow such a creature take over my friend whom I love.

[He's silent for a little, thinking.] ...Of course I am. How am I limiting myself? I told you, I know there's more to me than people like the Doctor see.

I'm not a tyrant. [He shifts uncomfortably.] How would someone like Braxiatel even know? He wasn't actually there. We had a vote for both the Final Sanction and, later, breaking out of the Time Lock. Were I a tyrant, I doubt I would have held them. So why should I doubt?

And I am not being taken over by anything.

Edited 2011-03-16 23:53 (UTC)

I know but when you're not here with me, does it ever get a viewing? A say?

There you are! You see? You can hardly say the word without doubting it, feeling uncomfortable.

And as for Brax, you made victims of two women he cares about and his brother, regardless of their own parts in the incident and all he does know about your return is that you kill Narvin, Romana and Leela are unaccounted for, and, under your watch, his brother had to decide whether he should destroy the world or let this plan of yours destroy the entire universe!

He doesn't know about the votes, because you never told him.

I do what I need to do. If I don't have the time to sit down and drink tea with someone, I shall not do that. I have a duty to fulfil, after all.

And I do not doubt! Why should I? I know the truth, they do not.

Does he know why Narvin was executed? Has he cared to ask? I did not break any laws. Executing a traitor, in accordance with the constitution, hardly makes me a tyrant. And I didn't kill the other two.

He does not know anything about how I have ruled, apart from the fact that I had traitors executed. He should either keep quiet or inform himself.

You have the abundance of time, don't make excuses.

I'm sure Brax can think of many reasons why Narvin would be executed, but that does not mean he knows how you lead. And how do you think he could inform himself? I wasn't there. The Doctor, perhaps, Narvin himself?

An abundance of time? Are you mocking me? When did I have that time? Come on, enlighten me! During the Time War? In the Divergent universe? Oh, but of course! How could I not notice? There was so much time for things like tea between the getting experimented on, the hiding, the attempts to get out! And naturally, I should have taken my time while my people were being slaughtered! How foolish of me, to think I don't have time!

[He had leaped up and started screaming, his face taking on an ugly red colour.]

And yes, he could ask Narvin. Or perhaps even me, I'd be delighted to prove his misconceptions wrong.

[He slumps back into his seat, all his power seemingly gone.]

[Omega jumped but listened to what he had to say. His voice is slightly shaken but quiet.] Now. I meant, now. You're not in the Time War, or the Divergent Universe. You're safe, here. No one is going to attack you.

Then why hesitate? Why not prove him wrong? Are you going to let his bitterness over his failure stop you?

And what do you think I am doing? I'm here, am I not? Talking with you? I even had tea with my Warden! What do you want from me?

[He doesn't address his failure to inform Braxiatel. Clearly, it's Brax' fault for not asking, and he wishes Braxiatel would just disappear anyway.]

[Omega's trying very hard not to snap.] Tell me why you're angry. What was I doing to make you feel hurt or angry? Why can't I suggest that you're better than a tyrant and that everyone should know that?

This isn't about what I want. What I want is for you to be happy, content. To not feel the need to... shout at me.

What did I do to you?

You keep accusing me! I don't have such doubts. [Yep. Absolutely not. No denial involved, never.] And I don't limit myself. Why should I? And when am I supposed to have done that? I play, compose... I talk with you, I talk with others... But you keep [poking at my issues] insisting that I am 'sabotaging' myself!

I don't want to be angry at you.

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